KEEP OUT * Dear Diary...

[ANDROMEDA CARLOTTA BLACK]

a diary of a.c. black

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i've been roaming around always lookin down at all i see. painted faces fill the
places i can't reach. you know that i could use somebody you know that i could
use somebody someone like you and all you know and how you speak countless

lovers undercover of the street you know that i could use somebody you know
that I could use somebody someone like you off in the night while you live it up i'm
off to sleep waging wars to shake the poet and the beat I hope it's gonna make
september 1974[/color][/center]

With everything that’s been going on lately, I find it difficult to believe that it’s still September. My classes are going rather well. I’ve been working hard, as usual, to do the best that I can, and at least it takes my mind off all the commotion that’s been happening around my cousin. Sirius Black means well… Actually his intentions have nothing to do with it. He’s always been the one to follow his passions and he never hesitates to bring along a girl in his… carnal excursions.

Although I am not as free-spirited as he is, this would all be fine with me… If I didn’t have to hear half of Hogwarts’ female population go on about how much of a “prat” he is. He isn’t. Yes, Sirius could be a little more sensitive. Yes, he could perhaps think twice about the girl he was sleeping with and what she would be like in the morning. But it is certainly not entirely his fault. I simply refuse to believe it and it angers me to no end that the girls here know who he is, know his reputation, want him just as much, consent to his advances, and then blame it all on him when they know very well that they were there just as much as he was. They did what they did with him—they could have said no and stopped it.

Sometimes, I feel their pain, but there have also been times, like now, where I’ve been endlessly frustrated because they constantly shift the blame. When they call him a prat or a git, they have no idea who their talking about because they never take the time to do anything that isn’t physical with him… I feel like they don’t even try… Despite what they might think, if they were to dig deeper, they would find that Sirius is a person who cares infinitely about the people he’s loyal to. I’m rather glad I’m his cousin, because perhaps, if I wasn’t, maybe I wouldn’t have had the chance to see what I see in him. I’d like to think that I’m a person who can keep an open and unbiased mind, but I think that Sirius as been more of a brother to me than Bellatrix or Narcissa are sisters and as far as loyalty goes...

with love,
- - - andromeda carlotta black[/i][/color][/font][/size][/blockquote]

ALL SEEING EYES CREATION
AT CAUTION BUT THE DROOL WORTHY
GRAPHICS ARE BY DAMAGED GOODS!

[ANDROMEDA CARLOTTA BLACK]

a diary of a.c. black

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i've been roaming around always lookin down at all i see. painted faces fill the
places i can't reach. you know that i could use somebody you know that i could
use somebody someone like you and all you know and how you speak countless

lovers undercover of the street you know that i could use somebody you know
that I could use somebody someone like you off in the night while you live it up i'm
off to sleep waging wars to shake the poet and the beat I hope it's gonna make
september 1974[/color][/center]

I believe I have done the unthinkable: I spoke to Severus Snape and it was actually a good experience. I went to the library and asked the person reading a book opposite of me if the chair I wished to sit in was taken. When he lowered the book, I realized it was unmistakably Severus. I had never really spoke to him before that moment and to be honest, I was a little scared. Sirius always insists that he’s a total git, but come to think of it, it’s always his side being the instigator. His words rang in my head so that I actually hesitated for a moment, but decided to sit down. If I had to say what I was afraid of, I think it was just being treated poorly. I’m actually very surprised he let me sit down.

Still, there is no way to find out anything better than to come to know it yourself, I suppose. He was rather closed off to me in the beginning, until I asked him what he was reading. It was his potions book. He mentioned that he was interested in potions and that’s where he really started talking. I’ve always liked potions, especially when professor Slughorn teaches us how to make intriguing things likes cosmetic potions, sleeping potions, things that are in the stories. Severus was clearly a little taken aback by my positive reaction. I’ve heard (and watched from afar) Sirius patronizing him for what he likes.

I learned quickly about how fascinating he was. He told me that he had modified the Draught of Living Death and I was purely astounded! What else could I be? I know...This might sound a little silly… A seventh year modifying a potion, but I ask, why on earth would he be lying? I suppose I don’t have any grounds to believe that Severus wouldn’t tell the truth and after all, I haven’t known him for too long personally. Regardless, the inevitable came up in the midst of our conversation. He mentioned my family. I tried to tell him that I wasn’t responsible for anything that my sisters or cousin had done. They aren’t me. He stiffened and was rather insistent about me being like them (and, my, how I hate it when that happens...).

It seems that nobody ever wants to take the time to get to know who I am if you don’t count pratboy and maybe that’s where I grew to be the most empathetic with Severus. He had many questions, now that I think of it. He proceeded to ask me how I was different, and I was honest with him, “I’m not as enthusiastic as Bella, as free-spirited and boisterous as Sirius, and I’ve never been anything very much like Cissy." He did loosen up a little, and I would’ve stayed a little longer, but I had to rush off to help Sirius with some of his work (I couldn't help but feel a little guilty with Sirius, as I had just spoken to someone he despises). I think Severus approves of me, but I'd like to send him an OWL. I think I might be making a new friend (:


with love,
- - - andromeda carlotta black[/i][/color][/font][/size][/blockquote]

ALL SEEING EYES CREATION
AT CAUTION BUT THE DROOL WORTHY
GRAPHICS ARE BY DAMAGED GOODS!